It’s a very harmful way of life. It’s an experience. It’s an injury that can’t be improved so rapidly. The pace distribution is literally. If disappointment overlaps, it will burn out. It’s like repeating overeating (excessive training) and vomiting (training abandonment).
It is different to win by running and running. You enjoy winning the challenge and running as a means. If you want to enjoy running, go out and run in a comfortable way. For me, it’s outdoor running while listening to my favorite music. Run at a moderate pace, concentrate on just running, immerse yourself in flowing music. While enjoying nature in front of you like BGM, the feeling of reaching an exquisite balance point that is not too late or too fast. I like that feeling that I can run for hours.
My running love grew after I was trapped in a “prison” state of corona ravages and suffered from the recovery of the baby and the body after childbirth. When I was able to run again, I literally ran for the joy of running. The painful experience really made me realize the grace of having a healthy body and time. Imagine the joy of the cattle released into the meadow at the end of winter. Joy is simple. My self-record is shitty enough to say the least (laughs). After two years of running, I was driven by the inner devil to improve my record. Then I realized that the joy of running was decreasing. Not just running, I started to do certain training. I stared at the clock persistently, and I was disappointed that my progress was slow, because I was not bad at running. Every time I updated my new record every week, I just wanted more. In the end, I was pushed to the point of injury due to sudden training at an impossible pace. I remembered why I was running while I waited for the light meat separation to heal. For that afterglow, for mental health, for calorie consumption (laughs). I really hate not being able to run.
They are already living in a competitive society and are already trapped in competition and bound by smartphones. That’s the fuck. So I made the speed of walking a top priority, and I returned to looking forward to running. In the last run, I helped a cool snail across the road. Sometimes this makes me smile.
I’m not a psychologist, but I’ve experienced that condition. The problem was not my hobby, but everything else in my life. I was good at it, but I had little pleasure in my academic achievements. “Oh, I finished writing my doctoral thesis, I finally finished.” Oh, I passed the exam, I should have done more. This was attributed to a dysfunctional childhood, and only received love for the achievements. Imagine the stereotypes of Asian families. But they boasted about my achievements and eventually grew up in a successful young man who was prone to burnout syndrome. No matter what deep-rooted harmful mechanism, stop it! Now develop your awareness of this moment. Realize that everything is fragile and that it is not strange when it is lost. Enjoy and appreciate what you have now.
It may be necessary to race a distance longer than 5 km. It may be necessary to compete like a triathlon. You may like trail running. But you need introspection to find the root cause of disappointment, and maybe therapy? I was absolutely effective. I recommend it to everyone!